LoLx...i deserve it!

i dunno why i'm like the only one who really cares for the cca!... seriously..
regarding the camp in like one week time, is like i'm the only one sending email to everyone and the only one who is really concern...
somemore, the secretary even ask me whether i got read my mails when i previously sent a SERIOUSLY EMO-ING EMAIL TO everyone...
another thing is that most of the j1s have second cca...MOST...and i shldn't say second...i shld say PRIMARY cca...so is like our's is their secondary...
but i really appreciate that some j1s still remain in our cca cos they find it interesting...and for this...i'm goin to teach them interesting stuffs...even the current j2s dunno.... of course i did my homework...greenscreen, solving shaky hands problem...etc..
actually i did not have any thoughts abt getting the service award....BUT...come to think of it...i did all my jobs n tasks WILLINGLY and did them with all my best!!
i noe i'm very easy to be persuaded into doin events becos i'm the only one staying nearest to sch...
but i'm willing to do it...no regrets or complains...
so...i'm quite pleased that i'm rewarded for wht i did...
i'm so envious of other ccas la.. at least they got do rehearsal or something...but ours...ppl got time also dun wan to have ONE SINGLE meeting to finalise everything for the camp...
i'm deeply disappointed... i mean...all i ask for is one MEETING to finish up everything... haiz..
furthermore, i send a sms n that particular dun reply... HELLO...i'm just HEAD OF VIDEO leh...not in-charge of the cca leh... can u at least show some concern by replying...
sometimes..i really feel like giving up..but then... i still feel that i need to do something abt it...
why leave it alone to continue to harm when u can just solve it and that settles everything..
so pissed..
somemore, is not like i dun need to study leh...is not like i dun need to rest also... i just wan to have a break from cca...

i hate ppl say i no need to study one la... sure can get high marks one... pls la.. dun study also need to read thru abit rite...to refresh memory...
YES...i admit i can remember quite a number of mathematical and chemical eqns and theories...
BUT...that doesn't mean i'm a closet mugger...pls la... i can remember because i can remember not becos i everyday study.... i dun... seriously... ask my family if u wan to...

but again... since A lvl is coming... i need to start to discipline myself liao... i rmb being lazy when i'm preparing for my Os... Totally regretted it la... i wan to get a scholarship n study in SMU...if possible..haha...

ok..i think that's all for the emoing...
i apologise if i hav offended any of u in this post! sorry...